I dunno, I think you're doing a good job of showing it.
[And maybe it's harder because this is Fred, because talking to him and joking with him every day while knowing - an explosion, blood and pain and darkness and above all the sound of Percy's scream, and it was all, all over - is hard enough, rips in a little deeper every time. Here it is, the reminder that even this won't last forever, that the scales balancing living and dead can only last so long like this before starting to correct itself. Not everyone gets a miracle of magic to bring them back (not everyone gets an hour or months to resign to the end)]
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[And maybe it's harder because this is Fred, because talking to him and joking with him every day while knowing - an explosion, blood and pain and darkness and above all the sound of Percy's scream, and it was all, all over - is hard enough, rips in a little deeper every time. Here it is, the reminder that even this won't last forever, that the scales balancing living and dead can only last so long like this before starting to correct itself. Not everyone gets a miracle of magic to bring them back (not everyone gets an hour or months to resign to the end)]